It’s been a long time since Chapter 4 – so please go back and re-read the previous chapters before starting on this one, just to refresh your memories! :-)

Months into my relationship with Tom, we finally actually made an outward admission to ourselves that something was going on. We weren’t just friends, we weren’t lovers either, but we were definitely somewhere in between. As class finished that day, with my braless breasts swelled with horniness, I could hardly believe that my nipples still seemed to be rock hard, it had been three hours and they were still going strong, I wondered if the room was ice cold or something, but no, the temperature seemed reasonable.

I left the room and was looking for Tom, I couldn’t find him anywhere, he had vanished into thin air. I was so disappointed. Then as I walked out of the building, with my phone in my hand as I began to send him a text message, I saw him standing by his car. He smiled over at me and then got in. I looked around casually to see who was around – this had become a regular thing for me to do if I was getting a lift with him, I didn’t want people to get the wrong idea (or maybe it would have been the right idea) because that’s how rumours start – I couldn’t see anybody I knew, so I headed over to his car and got into the passenger side. We smiled at each other, I said hi, he looked at me, started the car, looked back over at me, and, stating the obvious, he said, “I hope you don’t mind me saying, but your tits look fucking fantastic!”. He’d never spoken to me like that before, he rarely even used crude language, so it sent goosebumps down my body as I blushed profusely and tried to hide the fact that I was grinning like a Cheshire Cat. But always liking to hold my own in these kind of conversations, and keep the upper hand – as I said, I didn’t even really know what being submissive was all about at this point – I replied with a jokey statement of “it’s taken you long enough to notice!” Referring to the fact that we’d been friends for around 6 months now and I’d spent most of that time trying to get him to notice! We both laughed out loud.

He drove me home to my Uni flat, and we chatted quite mundanely about Uni work for the ten minutes or so that the journey took. It was quite uncomfortable really, we both knew our relationship had changed, but neither of us was ready to talk directly about it, or knew how to bring it up with the other in a serious manner. We were both just waiting for the other one to say something I think. I invited him up for coffee, he said no as he had to be somewhere, and I walked toward my building, slowly, waiting for him to call my name, hoping for another “instruction”. But it didn’t come.

As disappointed as I was on that occasion, it didn’t take long for me to get over it, as only a matter of days later he drove me home again, and I invited him up for coffee again, and this time his response was “Yes!”. He’d been up to my flat several times before, as we had been friends for several months and had studied together a few times, but this time was different. We sat at the kitchen table as I made us some coffee’s, the chat was somewhat mundane once again, he sat there looking like there was something heavy on his mind, and I flitted around making the drinks, and being a bit too flirty. At one point instead of walking around him to the other side of the table to pick something up, I just leaned and reached right across him, thrusting my right breast against his left cheek. Looking back with some since-gained wisdom, I have to admit I was incredibly naughty to really be practically offering myself on a plate to a married man.

After I’d finished making coffee and sat down across from him, he finally broke our long-standing silence and talked about “us”.

He said that he was married, happily married, but he added that he also really looked forward to attending classes at Uni as he really enjoyed spending time with me, and he was more than a little confused over our situation. I don’t remember the conversation word for word, but I do remember that I apologised for coming on a little strong, and I told him that I’d just developed a crush on him and for a while I’d just wanted the crush to be reciprocated, to feel that there was part of him that wanted me too, but I realised that maybe I’d pushed a little hard to get that, and in the process I had kind of found myself wanting... more. We sat there pondering over a definition of our relationship, were we just friends, were we more, did we want to be more, was there a happy medium? Then we heard one of my flatmates down the corridor – she was a pretty loud character, so trust me that you knew when she was coming from a mile away!

So we didn’t have her walk into the middle of our awkward conversation – there had already been the odd rumour flying around about the nature of our relationship without us adding fuel to the fire – we quickly retreated to my room to finish our talk. It had taken us a long time to get to a point where we could talk about this, so this conversation needed to be finished while we were in the right mood to talk about. But frankly, my bedroom wasn’t the most ideal of backdrops considering the nature of our talk!

Actually, my bedroom also had my desk and my computer and everything in there, and it was a bit of a mess, so it wasn’t a sexy and serene love boudoir at all! Lol

We perched on my bed and chatted quietly about us, it was quite an emotional chat, but not in a fits of tears kind of way. I think I generally made it clear that I loved his quiet, mature, but somewhat over-powering nature, and that I’d loved our flirting ways and the direction they’d been going in. And also that although it wasn’t what I’d originally intended, and it wasn’t the be-all and end-all of what I was feeling right then, that if he did want to “progress things” between us, then I wouldn’t turn him down. He once again re-iterated that he was a married man, and wasn’t the kind of person who went around playing around behind his wife’s back. But he did think there were avenues of our relationship that we could go down without taking things too far or jeopardising anything else.

“Do you like it when I give you orders?” he asked. I stuttered a little bit, embarrassed by what my answer to that question was going to be. “Erm, I guess it’s quite fun” I replied. “Is that a yes? If it’s a yes, you can just say yes, there’s nothing to be embarrassed about.” He said in a dead-pan manner. “Yes.” I finally answered. He followed up with another question – “Do you enjoy being a bit naughty for me, a bit of a slut?”. His directness startled me somewhat. A voice inside my head just shouted “yes” immediately, but I couldn’t say that out loud. I was 19, innocent, naive, respectable. I didn’t know what being submissive was all about, and that being a slut wasn’t always a bad thing. So I just stated, quite timidly if I remember correctly, “I’m not a slut.” He responded in an authoritive but comforting tone, “I never said you were my dear, I just asked if you enjoyed acting sluttily. For me? It’s a simple yes or no answer.” I looked down toward the floor. “Yes.” I said.

I caught him staring at a small lockable chest in the corner of my room. “Is something wrong?” I asked. He asked what I kept in there and if I had the key. I didn’t keep anything important or private in there, it was just a small storage chest that I threw junk into to keep it out of the way. I didn’t even lock it, it wasn’t personal stuff. I explained this to him, but said that I did have the key. He stood up and stated very matter-of-factly that he had something I could do for him. Take every pair of panties that I own, place them into that chest, lock it, and give him the key. I looked at him, he had a cheeky but sexy glint in his eye and was trying his best not to smile. I smiled and stood up, walked over to my underwear drawer, took out all my panties, and placed them into the chest. I took the key off my shelf, locked it and handed it to him. “Is that all of them?” he asked. I said it was, but he knew better than I did. “Are you not wearing any today?” he asked. “Oh” is all I said, before hiking my skirt up and flashing a lot of my legs to Tom whilst removing my panties right in front of him. I took the key back, unlocked the chest, threw them in, and locked it again. “Are you sure that’s them all this time?” he asked me whilst glancing over to the laundry basket at the other side of my room. I smiled at him, “You’re good” I said. And I fished out my last few pairs and locked them away too. I gave him the key, and he tucked it away in his wallet. “You’ll get this back when you’ve earned it back! He stated with a smile.

*In my Chapter planning notes, I had quite a bit more down for this chapter. However, I’m conscious of this a) taking too long to write and post, and b) becoming too long of a chapter. Therefore, I’m going to end this chapter here, and follow on with the rest (including my first submissive sex, which is where I’d planned to get up to in this chapter) in the next chapter.*

Has everybody had a nice Christmas? I can’t believe that it has come and gone already. Myself and J spent most of the holidays apart this year, as he spent a few days with his family, and I travelled down to my parents house to have my own family Christmas. I don’t like being away from J during the holiday periods as it’s the time above all other times that I feel we should be together. But spending a few days with my family was important too, and I know my mum loves having me home, especially for Christmas.

J isn’t totally “accepted” in my family despite countless attempts to get everybody to get along and be nice to each other. It’s been tough getting myself accepted into J’s family too, especially as he has two grown up kids that are more or less around my age. But it all runs fairly smoothly on the whole now. But we decided to go our separate ways for this Christmas as he spent Christmas Day at his ex-wife’s house, so all the family could be together, especially as J has a new grand-daughter this year. (How old am I making him feel right now! Lol). The one member of his family that really doesn’t like me is his ex-wife!! They divorced several years before I met him, so it’s got nothing to do with that, but I guess it’s the ex’s prerogative to dislike the newer model!

But we both had good Christmas’ apart, and I returned home this past Monday, and we never lose our animal lust for one another that we have when we see each other after even just a few days apart. And we get to spend New Year’s together. Still haven’t quite decided where we’re going for New Years Eve yet, we have a couple of options.

I’ve recently picked up a part-time job at a bar on top of my standard 9-5 work schedule, so it’s still a busy time for me at the moment. It’s an expensive life I lead, and I need the extra money unfortunately. It’s great to get back into the bar-work scene though, I really do miss it. No offence to anybody who does that for a living, but I do feel that bar-work is beneath me as a career path. But it really is my calling in life – I get to dress up pretty, be leered at, be flirty, be chatty, meet lots of different people – it really is a great job to have, so I’m glad to be doing it again. Don;t know how long I’ll carry on doing it, maybe until I get bored, maybe until I pay off a few debts and don’t need the money as much, or maybe I’ll have to quit when I have to get back to studying around March time as I may not have the time.

On the topic of exams... Thanks to all those who wished me luck in my exams as well by the way, I did manage to get all three of them completed. I almost didn’t bother going in for one of them as I hadn’t done anywhere near enough study, but I did bite the bullet and went and sat it anyway. I’m just useless at home study, I always think I can be good at it, but there’s always better things to do. I did a college course for one of my papers, so did quite a bit of work for that away from home. But then the other two were all down to me to study at my own desire. And I couldn’t get the mix right, I tried studying a little bit of each every week, but just got confused, so I ended up concentrating solely on one paper for several weeks, and then lacked the time to do any proper study on the others. I really don’t know how I did – I need 50% to pass, and I’d like to think that I’m hopeful that I did enough to get at least that in all three of them. I did get 35% on the exam I took in June after all, and I only started studying for that less than a week before the exam, so I’d hope to do better with well over a month of decent attempted studying behind me.

I’m trying to get back to work on the blog – lots to talk about in coming weeks. Need to get Chapters 5 and onwards of the “Journey” blog written and posted, and have lots of current day catch-up events to bring you all up to date on as well. So I will try to get busy with that very soon, I promise.

This is my final blog of 2009, so have a great New Year everybody, and I’ll see you in 2010!

Had lots of e-mails in the past couple of months from old friends and new friends alike, so thanks for those. I’ve been trying to reply to them all as quickly as possible. And on that note...

E-MAILING ME – if you ever do e-mail me (at blogslut13@yahoo.co.uk), make sure you add my e-mail address to your safe list, as some people are finding that my replies get caught in their spam filter. I don’t want anybody thinking that I’m not replying when I am!!

Take care everybody – until next time...

I must say, I really kind of flourished in my first few months at Uni. Meeting so many new people, and being in a completely different place without any safety net – it just caused my personality to force itself to the surface, I came right out of my shell, and the sweet yet outgoing and flirty girl that I am today made her first real venture out into the world. I also took a much bigger interest in clothes and fashion, and how I looked and my appearance in general, which isn’t hard to do when you move to a much bigger city and find so many more options and styles available to you. So I was in the process of a transition from pretty but plain, to gorgeous little sex kitten.

My God, I think I became popular – no, it couldn’t be, surely!! Lol

But I really must have been popular in my group, because after striking up a friendship with one of the “mature students” in our class – he was well into his fifties, was semi-retired and just generally taking a part-time Uni course to keep his mind busy and follow his passions – I managed to get him accepted into our circle of 18-21 year old friends, purely based on my say so.

I liked him personally, he had such knowledge of the world, and was so interesting, so easy to talk to, and he was pretty much the only person I found at Uni who I could sit down for an hour or two with and just discuss books and random bits of literature with, he was a good intellectual foil for me. We met in one of my classes, he was treated like a bit of an outsider by everybody, despite his best efforts to be nice and join in the group conversations and discussions. But a few weeks in, we were given a little project to do in pairs, and I felt a little sorry for him as he sat there and kind of waited for everyone else to pair off to see who he was left with. So I strutted over to him (I say strutted because my new found popular “gorgeous little sex kitten” persona had somehow lead to me developing a bit of a “sex-kitten strut” – or it could have been that I’d started to wear heels on a regular basis for the first time ever and was struggling to walk properly! lol), with my long blonde hair flowing, my big eyes twinkling, and with my cute little smile, and asked if he wanted to team up with me.

So we did, and after class we went to the main Uni building, had coffee, and chatted about the project and our ideas, which lead to chatting about loads of other stuff, and we ended up enthralled in each others words for about 3 or 4 hours. That night I went back to my student accommodation room, and I masturbated myself into such an intense orgasm. It wasn’t even sexual really, I was only thinking about him talking to me, there was no sex involved in my fantasy, I just found his intelligence and interestingness (is that even a word? lol) the biggest turn on ever. My school-girl crush had began for this older married class-mate of mine. And two days later it was my nineteenth birthday, and I was stunned to find a huge bunch of flowers arrive from him, with the simple message “I really enjoyed chatting with you. Have a wonderful birthday!”. He wasn’t helping me fan the flames of my crush at all!

My mind set became quite similar to the crush I had two years earlier, and I desperately wanted him just to notice me. I wasn’t expecting it to go anywhere, and part of me didn’t even want it to go anywhere, just like when I was 17, I just wanted him to reciprocate my crush in some form or another.

But my submissiveness really did start to take over this time, as time went by, even though at this point I can’t say I really knew what “submissive” meant, nor did I know that I could possibly be one. My relationship with Tom (not his real-name, but it’s better than calling him the older married guy from Uni for the rest of this story!!) was just the normal friends relationship for quite a while, albeit a little bit flirty when we were away from other people’s company, and it was certainly the slowest developing relationship I’ve ever had – like I said, I don’t think either of us had any real desire to take this anywhere.

He became quite a fixture within our friendship group – not into the clubbing and bar-hopping part of it, but whilst at Uni and for drinks or coffee, or lunch after classes, he was readily accepted into the group as a friend and perhaps a bit of a father figure. He didn’t throw cold water on our shenanigans, he was a nice guy, and everyone liked him and didn’t shy away from any kind of conversation just because he was there – sex, girls, guys, we made him endure it all, and he chipped in when he could.

It was approaching Christmas-time when during one such group conversation about girls, how girls dress, and in particular high heels, Tom stated that he particularly enjoyed seeing girls in high heels and he was amazed at just how high the heels had become on the young girls of today. The next day when getting dressed for Uni I subconsciously pulled out my sexiest and highest heels to put on, which were only four inches high back then, and then thought to myself “why am I wearing these?” as they were purely going out shoes and not really Uni day-wear. I then remembered what Tom had said the day before, smiled to myself, and put them on anyway, and at Uni that day I made the effort to make sure he noticed them.

I carried on wearing heels every day that I knew I would be seeing Tom, even using it as an excuse to do a bit of shoe shopping here and there, and I think he appreciated it and realised I was trying to impress him a little. And shortly after that he started throwing in other “suggestions” about things he liked to see, sometimes in group situations and sometimes in general private conversations, but never implied to be anything more than a passing comment. It was a bit of a running “joke” between us that was never spoken about. He’d say something, the next day I’d do it, we’d share a little smile, but it never went further and was never directly discussed. Anything from wearing red nail varnish, to wearing red lipstick, to wearing my hair down instead of up, or if he was being more bold when there was just the two of us he might make a comment about the short skirt or the low cut top that another girl was wearing, and just give me a cheeky smile, and the next time we’d meet I’d be wearing a skirt just as short or a top with just as much cleavage on display. It was all quite low key really, but for me it laid the foundations of my submissiveness for the future.

I think we were both really enjoying the general fun and flirty, and weirdly D/s, relationship we’d generated, but I don’t think either of us really planned to step it up a notch or anything, there were a lot of factors that stood in our way – the age-gap, his marriage, sometimes I was in relationships as I did date through my first year at Uni, even if none of them were particularly serious, it was a pretty “off” year for me in that respect.

But needless to say, slowly but surely it did develop. There was no leeway whatsoever in how it had been going along, so a change had to come along at some point. And it came one day when he was driving me back to my Uni flat after class, I got out of the car and was about to walk away when he called my name. I looked in through his open window, and he said to me, “don’t wear a bra tomorrow”, smiled, and drove away without giving me the chance to respond. It was a fairly significant change to the dynamic of our relationship – never before had he given me a specific and direct instruction, they’d all previously been thinly guised as passing comments and nothing was directly said between the two of us that anything was happening between us.

So the next day came, and off to Uni I went, in a pretty strappy top with decent cleavage on view, and no bra underneath. I was a little worried that it was too obvious that I wasn’t wearing a bra, I had tried to find a happy medium, I didn’t want it to be too obvious to everybody, I wanted it to be a little more subtle, but I did want Tom to be able to notice without too much effort. I don’t think I found that happy medium though – everybody’s eyes just gravitated to my chest as I walked by. I found out something else about myself that day as well though… I actually loved the attention, I really did! As all the eyes lingered on me, my heart started beating faster and harder, and I was shocked to notice that my nipples stiffened almost instantaneously. My inner-slut came out to play, and it was a strange, strange feeling.

I didn’t speak to Tom when I got to Uni, the first time I saw him was at the start of class, and we were sitting about 7 or 8 seats apart – the seating was in a general semi-circle so we were slightly facing each other and only maybe 4-5 metres away from one another. My phone then vibrated, I opened up the unread message from Tom, and it read, “If I didn’t know better, I’d think you were enjoying the attention, you naughty girl!”. I replied with “do I have your attention?”, and he responded “oh, something’s definitely at attention!”, and finally I texted back “Then I definitely AM enjoying the attention!”

This was another first for us, we’d never sent each other text’s of a naughty variety before. This was definitely a new chapter in our relationship, and I was definitely excited about what the future may hold now we’d turned this corner and were both fully aware of, and acknowledging, that there was something between us… even if it had taken 6 months since meeting to get here.

To be continued…

I really need to jump ahead to around my 19th birthday now to get to the next really big event, but that’s 18-24 months further down the line from where I’m currently at in my story time-line, and those two years are important to the long-term story, so I need to slow it down and tell the story properly…

After the events of my seventeenth birthday, I started dating a very nice guy I met at college, lost my “full” virginity to him on Valentines Day as I mentioned in Chapter One, and we dated for a good year after that. We had reached the point where we had both exclaimed that we loved each other, and we got along great, despite the fact that we were heading in very different directions with our lives. We’d been applying for University places, and were looking at Uni’s at completely different ends of the country because we both had separate career goals and aims in life, so we both knew that we’d probably have to break up at some point, whether it be by necessity or whatever, or one of us would have to make a big sacrifice for the other. But we let that slide by us, and just enjoyed each others company and lived in the now – the future was so far away! We developed a pretty healthy sex life after our first time, and quickly realised we not only both really enjoyed sex, but even more importantly, we really enjoyed sex with each other. So we were all over each other at every opportunity. Living with our parents, it was tough to find the right times, but we managed it. Many a time we’d be at one of our houses with our parents, and they’d announce they were popping out for half an hour, and we’d be ripping each others clothes off before they even got out the door so we could make every second count. My dad didn’t let him stay over with me in my room until after my 18th birthday, and even then, full blown let your hair down sex was out of the question – no screaming orgasms with my parents in the next room!! Lol.

We were also quite open with each other sexually, which is very unusual for such a young and inexperienced couple. We would read things in magazines or on the internet and we’d be like “hey, you wanna try this?” I very quickly realised my sexual inhibitions were a lot less than my general life inhibitions. Dressing up, fantasy play, we even had a couple of unsuccessful attempts at anal sex.

But the cracks eventually began to show as we started to grow apart a little, and argue a bit more than normal. And eventually we broke up. It was a fairly amicable break-up though, and we stayed friends to a degree afterwards.

My next boyfriend a couple of months later didn’t last long – he got really mad about some sort of slutty rumour about me that my ex’s new girlfriend had started, and wouldn’t accept my version of the truth, so he got thrown to the curb quick-smart, because I wasn’t dealing with that shit!

But I still had some fairly strong sexual fantasies about my 17th birthday, and thinking of that had certainly been the catalyst for many sessions of self-pleasure in the evenings in the 18 months or so since it happened. And, being a single girl as my two year college stint was drawing to a close, and having the older-man fantasy at the fore-front of my subconscious, I happened upon an older gent at the hotel bar I was now working in – I’d moved up in the world from chamber maid to bar-girl since turning 18 – and decided to give the older guy thing a proper try.

I don’t really have a bad word to say about him – we dated for around three months, and during that time he showered me with gifts and treated me very well. Overall, he was nice enough, and we had some decent sex, but he just didn’t seem to be quite as enthusiastic about it all as I was used to. Maybe it was just because I was very much in the youthful experimentation phase with my previous boyfriends, and he was a little past that stage, having already found what he did and didn’t like, and in more of a routine. I even started doubting my blow-job skills because he never even really seemed to enjoy that aspect of our sex-life. And I’d spent a year giving head to my ex very regularly, polishing and improving my technique with each and every one. We had our own little code language for it so we didn’t have to be too crude – we joked that I was a “qualified oral practitioner” – okay, I never said it was a SECRET code language!! Lol. He did very much enjoy giving oral sex though, and he did increase my liking of that. And he did really enjoy me being dressed nice and sexily, he loved me in sexy lingerie and negligee, and going from dating poor students to a man who’d been working for 20 years meant he had the cash to buy it all for me!! The benefits of the older man! Lol. He even bought me my first couple of pairs of stockings, although at this point in time they were limited to bedroom wearing.

But back to the story – me and my older man, we just didn’t gel right; even when my Dad practically disowned me for dating him, the taboo of dating him, although it possibly prolonged our relationship due to the teenage rebellious instinct within me, just wasn’t enough to hold us together and create any real feelings between us. Well I say that, he was actually besotted with me and told me he loved me – I just didn’t quite feel the same way about him. I thought he was a great guy, and I liked him, but I couldn’t go as far as love. I don’t know what it was – it just wasn’t like what I thought it would or should be. I guess it was because he just didn’t have a dominant bone in his body, and whether I realised it or not, that’s what I really wanted when I went down the older man route. I wanted a take-charge kind of guy, someone who could show me something different, show me a different way of life, and just “take me”.

So we eventually broke up – very amicably with some sex for the road – and I swore off men for my remaining month at home before I’d be off out into the big world, heading to Uni… young, free, and single! And I told myself I’d stick to guys my own age again.

I’d been accepted into two completely different Uni’s, doing two completely different courses. Uni A was about 250 miles from my home-town, and there I got accepted for a Finance Degree. Uni B was a mere 200 miles away and offered a completely different degree course in English Literature. I was still undecided about my life path – I had the sensible choice of the Finance degree, offering a good career utilising my strong numeric and mathematical skills that I’d got from my Dad’s side of the family. Then there was the less sensible choice; follow my love of books and the English language, study different writing styles and authors, and chase my dream of becoming a writer.

Just to clarify on the miles – if you’re reading in somewhere like the USA, 200-250 miles probably seems minimal, an afternoon drive to the next city or something. Here in the UK, it’s half way across the country and then some!! Lol. And forgive the lack of exact locations, trying to hold some key details back to keep some anonymity here!

Anyway – I’ve spoken about being a part-qualified accountant, so it’s pretty obvious which Degree course I chose isn’t it? Yes, that’s right, I went to Uni B for the English Literature course!! And yes, I’m serious, that isn’t a joke. I was 18, I wasn’t practical and thinking about getting a 9-5 job for life, I was going to chase my dream!!

To be honest, if I’d chosen the Finance degree, now with hind sight of actually trying to become an accountant, I’d probably be on loads more money now as I’d probably be fully qualified and flying, but I won’t complain about my chosen path – I loved the degree I did as I absolutely love the written word, and I love the way my life has turned out from taking this path in my life, and the experiences that Degree Course gave me along the way.

September came, and I threw most of my belongings into my older brothers car – he was driving me there as I had no car (or licence) of my own – and we hit the northbound road to my new Uni home, we got there and I moved into my first home away from home – one of the big student accommodation blocks of flats, where I had a pretty tiny room in a pretty tiny flat that I was to share with two strangers. Such a scary moment in my life, I was like a fish out of water. But everybody else is in the same boat, so everyone helps everyone out. And soon Fresher week commences, the cheap alcohol flows, and everyone becomes the best of friends!!

Fresher week was full of many firsts for me; it was my first week at Uni, my first week living away from home, my first week living in a big city, it was even my first time living in a completely different country! England is a different country to Wales, honestly!! Lol. I was really out of my comfort zone, trying to make lasting friendships with complete strangers from different walks of life and from all different parts of the country, it seemed like a million miles away from my home area, where I knew people, and people knew me. And it soon became the scene for my first ever drunken one night stand.

I think there must be more one night stands in the early weeks of Uni than anywhere else at any time, and if everybody feels the way I did at that time, I can certainly understand why. I felt lonely, frustrated, and isolated, and frankly cheap, meaningless sex was not only a release, and not only a way to pass the time, it was a way to numb those feelings for a short time. Plus he was incredibly gorgeous and a pretty damn good fuck! Lol. Even if he snuck off straight afterwards!! Boys!!

Another first for me that week – my first STD. Just a minor one and I got it cleared up in a few weeks, but I just want to take this point to say something, as I know there is a younger audience of the late teens and early twenties that read my blog. PRACTICE SAFE SEX!! Always carry a condom, both boys and girls, it’s better to be safe if you plan on having sex, and it’s horrible to ruin a perfectly good, enjoyable, and natural act by passing on infections!! Didn’t really need to tell that bit for the story, just wanted to get on my soap box for a moment and try and be Little Miss Responsible!! Lol

After that I kind of swore off guys for a bit – I decided I wanted to commit my time to two things, starting on the right foot at Uni, and finding a job in the big city. I did both, starting well at Uni, and getting a job at a big city centre hotel chain doing bar and waitress work at their restaurant, sticking to the work I’d known in the past.

But after all of that, once again I undo all my hard work by getting yet another big school-girl crush on a guy!! My life seems to be full of school-girl crushes, I get one every so often, even to this day, and it’s usually on somebody completely inappropriate. And boy was this one inappropriate – not only was he significantly older than me, he was also married!! And as time would tell, it would prove to be one of the best and worst things that has ever happened to me, combined into one, and I can tell you one thing above all else – I’d just turned 19, and the next year of my life sure wasn’t going to be a boring one!!

To be continued in Chapter Four…

Some people say there’s not enough bdsm in my blog, and they’re right, there usually isn’t. So I’ll change that right now.

As a bit of a break from my “Journey” series of blogs, as I’ve been working hard on that and deserve a break, and I’m sure you guys would like a break from that as well, I’m going to write a current day blog, just to mix things up a little.

So I’m not going to take you back to the ancient times of my teenage years today (well it feels like ancient times sometimes!), I’m just going to take you back a week or so to a Friday evening at home in the J and blogslut household!

I’d been home from work for about half an hour, I hadn’t got changed or undressed just yet – J likes me to stay dressed in my work attire for a while in the evening – so I was in a knee length black skirt, a white and blue fitted blouse with a bit of cleavage on view, a light blue bra, thong, and suspender belt combo, black stockings, and black 5” heels.

I knew J was feeling a little horny as he was being a little amorous, but then my phone rang so I began a conversation with my friend on the other end. I was on the phone for a few minutes, sitting on the sofa, when J sat down next to me and began kissing my neck. I broke off the conversation for a second to see if he wanted me to get off the phone, or if he could keep it in his pants for a little while.

He said no, and told me to stay on the phone, but carried on kissing me anyway. At this point I pretty much got the idea of what he was doing. Lately he’s developed a habit of molesting me (I say that in the nicest possible way lol) whilst I’m talking to friends or family. A week earlier he’d fingered me to an orgasm under the table whilst we were at a friends house. Not to mention another time recently where he got me to give him a hand job until he came over my face while I was talking to my mum on the phone!

So anyway, I was chatting away to one of my most talkative friends – not somebody you can get rid of in a couple of minutes – and he was kissing my neck and shoulders, which was followed by him groping me through my clothes, and then to him unbuttoning and taking off my blouse. My skirt was off next, and then my bra, and he really increased the difficulty of my conversation then by pinching, biting, nibbling and sucking my nipples, and slipping his hand inside my panties to gently rub my clitoris and insert one finger, then two fingers inside me.

He quietly told me to stay on the phone before he started pulling at the waistband of my panties – I lifted myself off the sofa to help him, and he slipped my underwear right off.

He continued his attack on my breasts and pussy as I carried on chatting, albeit absent mindedly, and my friend on the other side was completely unaware. It helped that she’s the kind of person who does most of the talking so I just had to say the occasional word or make the right sound of agreement .

He even got me to jack him off right by my face, literally inches from the phone, and even suck and lick the head of his ever growing cock during the parts of the conversation where she was talking so I didn’t have to.

Then he knelt in front of me, still indicating that I should stay on the phone and not try and end the conversation, he pulled me down the sofa a little and spread my legs before burying his face between my thighs, expertly flicking his tongue around my clitoris, first fast to work me up, and then slower to bring me down a little. I was holding the phone away from my mouth so my friend didn’t think our line had got crossed with a stalker, breathing heavily down the phone. And every time it was my turn to speak, he’d work my clit a little faster, or reach up and squeeze one of my nipples hard. I don’t know how my friend didn’t realise something was going on, I even practically yelped in pain down the phone one time when he pinched my nipple particularly hard. I explained to my friend that I’d just dropped something on my toe.

I’d been on the phone half an hour with all this happening, when J stopped, took me by the hand and ushered me up off the sofa. He led me up the stairs in nothing but my stockings and heels, telling me again not to end the phone conversation.

He had me lay on the bed on my stomach, I still had the phone to my ear as I rested on my elbows, and J walked around me, gathering various things from various places. Every time he walked in front of me he’d put his cock to my lips, place his hand on the back of my head and thrust all the way in a couple of times, before withdrawing, allowing me to do my best to carry on my conversation whilst he continued gathering things from around the room.

I noticed he had taken a couple of lengths of rope out, and I was really hoping my friend would stop talking and get off the phone before he used them. But she was well into the flow of talking, chattering on about her work and various other things.

J suddenly took the phone off me, pressed the speaker phone button and placed the phone on the bed by my head so I could still talk into it easily, and I could hear her without having it next to my ear. I knew I was about to find out what the ropes were for, and at this point he pulled my arms behind my back. Spreading my legs and pushing my feet up so they were against my ass, he proceeded to pull my arms to where my feet were and whispered to me to hold onto my feet. My shoulders were pulled back, so my back was slightly arched, keeping my head up off the bed. Taking the ropes he tied my left wrist to my left ankle and my right wrist to my right ankle, in a strange hog-tie variation. I was now helpless, tied, teased and open to anything, lying on the bed, my phone on speaker on the bed next to my head.

My friend was still chatting away, and I was doing my best to carry on the conversation, although I hadn’t really heard anything she’d said in the past couple of minutes as I’d completely lost my attention span. But I was making the right noises and saying the right words at the right times, and she just kept talking.

J spent the next 15 minutes teasing me mercilessly – he’d also got a vibrator out, and he inserted it into me on a low speed. He was running his hands, lips and tongue all over me, walking around in front of me and placing his cock at my lips so I could suck it for a few seconds here and there. He was also occasionally moving my legs so they were in a less bent position, which pulled my arms with it, pulled my shoulders back, and caused my back to arch. It is a generally uncomfortable position – you can either relax your legs a little and it pulls your arms back, or you can relax your arms and it pulls your legs up. The times he grabbed my hair and pulled me back, I was actually relieved as it took the pressure off my arms and legs.

All the while during this I was making little sounds of pleasure and pain, and doing my best to maintain the phone conversation – I really wanted to hang up, but knew that J didn’t want me to be the one to end the conversation, he wanted it to come to the natural conclusion of my friend finishing what she wanted to talk about. I really don’t know how she didn’t catch on to what was going on, or at least have some general idea that I wasn’t really paying attention. I even feigned tiredness to try and get her to hurry things along and hang up.

A while later, after what seemed like an eternity, J removed the vibrator from me and placed the head of his cock there instead, teasing me some more, as he moved it around, brushing it against my clit, inserting the tip of the head into me. He pulled my hair again, lifting my upper body backwards towards him, and he whispered into my ear “do you want me to fuck you?”. I whispered back “yes” before he told me to beg for it, and he let go of my hair, causing my upper body to fall back to the bed. I tried to turn my head to look at him behind me, which was near impossible in this position, and I whispered a pleading “please” in his general direction, he just mimed with his lips and hands that he couldn’t hear me.

He carried on teasing me with his cock and fingers, driving me crazy, and I really couldn’t concentrate on the phone in front of me, but was trying so hard, even if it was just to try and take my mind off the complete and utter horniness that J had driven me to. I finally sensed that she may be finishing her talking and encouraged her to hurry along, telling her I had to go and that I’d maybe pop around tomorrow for a glass of wine. She must have sensed my urgency to get rid of her to some degree, as she said “ok, I’ll see you tomorrow” and we said bye, and I tried to use my nose to hit the off button on my phone, it didn’t work at all, I wasn’t even sure if she’d hung up or not, but I couldn’t wait any longer, so I just nudged the phone off the bed and onto the floor, and just screamed out “please fuck me, PLEASE!”

J didn’t need asking twice, I think he was as worked up as I was, so he just thrust into me, deep and hard, and fucked me for about 10 minutes. I’d been on the cusp of cumming since the vibrator was in me, so I was doing all I could to hold back, as I’m not allowed to cum without permission. But when J was close he asked me if I was ready to cum, I shouted out “oh God yes”, and a few seconds later he told me to cum for him, and as he came inside me, I screamed out in an intense and phenomenal orgasm.

As soon as J was finished he pulled out and walked around in front of me. He grabbed my head, thrust his cock into my mouth and right down my throat. I was helpless as I was tied up as he fucked my face for a couple of minutes, emptying a few last drops of cum into me.

After pulling out, he went to get washed up whilst I was left tied on the bed. He came back a couple of minutes later, untied me and we cuddled on the bed for a while.

Until next time everybody, and if it’s a holiday weekend where you are, then please have a good one! :-)

Following on from Chapter One, I told you that the games my boyfriend and I played in the bedroom wasn’t actually my first inclination that I liked giving away control. You see, this may have been my first time going “all the way” with sex, but he was actually the third guy who I had given a blow job to. And I think my second blow job experience gave me my first taste (no pun intended) of a somewhat D/s experience, and my first inkling into not only the fact that I may have some submissive tendencies (although I didn’t have much idea what that meant at the time), but also to the fact that I have a major weak spot for the older gentleman.

Before I tell this story, as I know my blog is read in countries across the globe, I want to point out that the sexual consenting age in this country is 16, and as the following event took place on my 17th birthday, what happened was completely legal and consenting, even though it may be thought of as slightly immoral in certain circles.

So let me set the scene… it was my 17th birthday, I was out on the town (or just out OF town as this case may be!) with several friends, celebrating my 18th *cough cough* birthday. That’s what my fake ID said anyway, and how I was getting into, and served at, the pubs and bars we were going to! I’d had a little drink here and there before, but this was my first proper drinking night out. But I was still sensible and I hadn’t gone too crazy and just made myself sick or anything like that. I was out to have a laugh with my friends, and all in all, I planned on remembering the evening the next day.

But I was a little drunk and the night has a light haze over various parts, so this recollection is as I remember it. It isn’t a perfect recollection, I’ve probably embellished moments here and there and played down other moments, and I’ve certainly used my later gained wisdom to shed some light on the emotions and thought process from the time.

As the night wore on, some of my friends had already gone, and the rest, along with myself were thinking of calling it a night too. It was at this point that a gentleman called out my name from a few feet away, and as I turned, I saw that it was a good friend of my Dad’s, a family friend who my Dad had known for ages, and who I had known for about 5 years. He asked me the standard questions as a slight panicked look came across my face – what was I doing here, did my dad know I was out, how much had I been drinking? After this he offered to drive me home to make sure I got back safely in my condition. It made sense really, I was drunk, and I was heading in the opposite direction to my friends, so my only other options were a taxi, or a train combined with one hell of a walk that I probably couldn’t have managed in high heels that I hadn’t yet learned how to walk in properly.

So I left with my Dad’s friend, and we started driving. And I do want to point out at this point that I really don’t think at this point he had any intention of trying anything on with the young blonde 17 year old sat in his passenger seat. But the real question was – what were the intentions of the young blonde 17 year old birthday girl in the passenger seat?

From the moment I’d started to take an interest in boys several years earlier, I had begun to notice my dad’s friend and look at him in a different light. He was a very handsome man, a chiselled man, a mans-man. It was your typical school girl crush, I often hung around the adults slightly more when he was around, but alas, I was just a kid to him. A 13 year-old, a 14 year-old, a 15 year-old girl. But now I was a 17 year old girl. Actually I was a 17 year old woman! I didn’t look much like a girl anymore, although fairly drunk on this occasion, here I was all dressed up in heels, a sexy dress, and make-up. I had developed boobs over the last few years, and here they were straining against a dress that was perhaps far too revealing for a girl of my age. At last I could get him to notice me as more than just his friends kid – and boy was I going to do all I could to get him to notice me! In fact, as soon as that thought popped into my drunken blonde head that night, that became the only thought in there – get him to notice me as an attractive woman, not just as a kid. A goal, an aim, a mission!

So there I was, in the passenger seat of his car, doing my best to flirt in a subtle manner. And flirting is tough when you’re young and naïve, like I was. I didn’t really learn to flirt properly and develop a workable subtle style until I was at least 19 or 20. So there I was flirting, or at least trying to flirt – touching his arm softly occasionally, touching my own leg or chest just enough to try and divert his attention to that area of my body. Trying to sound sexy and interesting in my conversation.

But it wasn’t succeeding very well. One lustful look is all I was after to make me happy. But I wasn’t getting it.

So Plan B it was then, as I’m a determined girl and I was certainly determined to succeed on this particular mission.

And Plan A wasn’t really a very good plan, nor was it very well thought out, so can you just imagine how bad my Plan B was going to be. Yes – it was pretty much the drunken blurt out of “I love you, I do!” although not in those words. Lol. Actually I didn’t use the word love at all, I think it was more a statement of how attractive I thought he was and asking him if he’d ever thought about me in that way. But it did come out in the same blurt out fashion. Which just sounds even more drunken in a thick Welsh accent – which I had at that moment because (a) I hadn’t lost most of my accent yet, now I just have a slight “twang”, and (b) my accent gets worse the more drink I have, even to this day.

But anyway, after my “statement of intent” and practically lunging into his lap, he fought off my advances and got a little serious and stern with me, pretty much admonishing me like a naughty child, asking me questions about what I actually expected to happen, which I had no real answer for, followed up by some questions about if I’d had any real boyfriends and if I’d even had any sexual experiences. He wasn’t saying it in a pervy way, he was using them as statements to prove at what completely different stages in our lives we were and that I was too young to know what I was doing. At the point of him asking about my sexual experience though, I excitedly chirped up, as if it made me sound really mature and special or something “I’ve sucked a guy off before”. His admonishment of me seemingly hit a nerve and just made me want to prove to him that I wasn’t just a little girl, and that I was “grown up” and should be treated that way.

At this point he really had riled me up, to the point where I was thinking to myself, “Before I just wanted an acknowledgement that you thought I was pretty – now I’m going to fuck you just to prove you wrong!”

I don’t remember the exact conversation we had, but it was pretty heated and went something along the lines of me proceeding to argue my case, telling him I liked him because I always looked at him as a real man, but now I wasn’t sure he was man enough for me anyway. Just pushing his buttons the way he’d inadvertently pushed mine. He said something along the lines of “what do you want, do you want to suck my cock, is that it?” And I pretty much said “yes, as a matter of fact I do!” I think it was the most heated argument I’ve ever had that spawned a sexual act. It certainly wasn’t a tender moment! Lol

He jerked the car to a halt at the side of the country road we were driving down and a multitude of thoughts must have been running through my head. I was partly happy I’d pushed his buttons and made him treat me differently, not as a child/girl. I was partly excited that I was going to do something with my schoolgirl crush, but equally nervous. I had no sexual expertise other than a few gropes and one sloppy blow job – I was in no position to think I could pleasure this older, experienced guy at all.  But there was definitely a major part of me that was scared that I’d got in over my head and that wasn’t sure I really wanted this. But I was so stubborn and I sure as hell wasn’t going to be the one that backed down.

Before I knew it, his cock was out and I had my head in his lap giving him a shockingly poor quality blow job. He told me if I was going to suck his cock then I’d better do it properly, and we moved into the back seats of his MPV where there was more space. He began to take control a bit more, he held my head as he guided my mouth over his cock, and told me when and how to use my tongue to give him the most pleasure. It was my first blow job lesson, and he was a pretty good teacher. He didn’t force too much into my mouth to try and make me choke or anything, but he did build up a steady rhythm, fucking my mouth as I locked my lips firmly around his thickness and licked at his length furiously with my tongue. As my head began to bob up and down without the assistance of his hands on my head, he let go, and used his hands to pull the straps of my dress down, and pulled it down past my young tender breasts. He then proceeded to grab them roughly, and squeezed and tweaked my nipples hard. I yelped in pain as I went to pull my head away from him only to have him grab the back of my head again, never letting his cock leave my mouth. The encounter continued with his one hand continuing his torture of my sensitive engorged nipples as his other hand ensured I never moved my head away from his cock. Shortly after, he asked if I’d ever swallowed cum. I mumbled an inaudible no with a mouthful of cock right before he came, shooting his load into my mouth. It hit the back of my throat and I gagged, jerking my head away. He grabbed my chin and tilted my head back, preventing me from spitting it out, and jerked his cock, spurting another two ample streams of cum over my face. He then put his cock right back in my mouth, a strange instinct took over me and I just sucked, draining any drop of cum he still had.

He withdrew and started putting himself back into his trousers, as I used my hand to wipe some cum off my cheek. I looked at the white liquid on my fingers, I looked around, looking for somewhere to wipe my hand. I had two choices – my dress, or his car seats. Neither seemed like an option, so I just licked it off my fingers. You know, it didn’t taste as bad as I’d heard it would.

He got out of the car and got back into the drivers seat. I followed suit, not even realising my dress was still bunched around my waist, exposing my naked breasts with my sore reddened nipples to the world as I walked from the back of the car to the front, cum still pooling on my cheek and chin. What a sight I must have been right at that very moment if there’d been anybody around to see me!

As I got in, I began to fix my dress, while still wiping bits of cum off my face with my finger, and licking it off my finger. I wasn’t trying to be sexy, or slutty, or anything like that, I was literally just trying to look somewhat presentable before I got home. He then pulled some tissues from the glove box and gave them to me as we drove away, and I used them to finish cleaning myself up. It was about 10 minutes later when we pulled up outside my house, and in that time we didn’t say a word to each other. The only time we acknowledged each other was when we pulled up on my street, a few houses down from mine. He said “you’d better get out here”, and I meekly responded “okay, thanks for the ride”. And I was gone, into my house, thanking my lucky stars that everyone was already in bed. My dad was still awake though, as I knew he would be, as he always was when he was waiting for me to come home. The next day I got an ear bashing from my Dad about missing my one-off extended curfew that he’d given me so I could celebrate my birthday by 15 minutes. I certainly didn’t tell him why I’d missed it though.

And my Dad’s friend and I – we never talked about that night again. We shared some awkward moments of being in the same room together for a while, and we nearly spoke about it once, but got interrupted, so we didn’t. I think we both were on the same page though – we had our regrets, we knew it shouldn’t have happened, I knew I’d pushed his buttons and I shouldn’t have, he knew he was old enough to know better and shouldn’t have taken advantage of the situation, and more than that, we both knew that it should always remain our little secret.

I did have a really brief conversation with him about it last year – during a party I attended at my parent’s house that he was also at. It wasn’t a big heart-to-heart, it was a busy party so it was more just a small word in his ear as we sat next to each other for a fleeting few minutes. I just told him that I hope he didn’t feel bad about what happened, that it was all me, and that I didn’t regret it for a second. A flirty smile and a small and gentle kiss to his lips followed, and I really hope that if he had held any bad feelings about it for the past several years, that I put his mind at ease.

Who know’s, maybe one day I’ll go back home, get drunk and bump into him again, and the guy who first released my inner-slut can get a repeat performance with a MUCH less innocent version of me!! Haha. Oh the fun that could be had from that situation now!! Lol.

Coming up in Chapter 3 – Blogslut goes to Uni, and when the cat goes away, she sure can play!!

Just a little blog adapted from a recent e-mail conversation… I’m working on a series of blogs that should keep you all entertained over the next month or two – so keep ‘em peeled! :-)

I’ve been to many “black tie” events in my time, it’s always a lot of fun to incorporate just a bit of sluttiness, and to see how far you can push the envelope without making too much of a scene.

The obvious most daring thing you can do at a black tie event, for a girl anyway, is to go in a colour other than black. It makes you stand out in the crowd, especially if it’s a bright colour - red is the obvious colour to go with.

And I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve worn red to black and white affairs. I’ve also worn purple, blue, and one time even a yellow evening gown, all in the name of being “the centre of attention”.

It’s not always appropriate though, if it’s somebody else’s special occasion, it’s a little harsh to overshadow them too much. But Christmas parties and the like are fine, I hate wearing black to Christmas Parties – how dull and boring is that, it’s a time for bright colours and joviality!

Sometimes it backfires though – for instance I once wore a red dress to a large black and white themed party, only to find I was one of about 20 or so women to do so. I was absolutely devastated, it looks so desperate to everybody else when you have that many women trying to be the centre of attention by wearing garish colours.

If you stick with black though, you have two options – go short, go revealing, and have the smallest piece of black material wrapped around you as possible. Or, if the event isn’t appropriate for that kind of activity and you want to go more traditional and elegant, it poses a million questions about how you can still let that slutty side out, but it also offers a million subtle but fantastic opportunities.

One time at a “black, white and diamonds” affair, I remember I wore a black fitted strapless dress, it was a very pretty and elegant dress with only a tiny bit of cleavage on display, just past the knee in length but with a moderate split in the back. Underneath I didn’t wear any bra or panties, but I did wear a black six strap suspender/garter belt, black seamed fully fashioned stockings (which are a general must wear item for any elegant event), and the outfit was finished off with black 6” heels. A bit of diamond jewellery as well of course, to go with the event theme! Actually, I couldn’t afford diamonds, so I wore sparkly fake gems! lol

I wasn’t with a date, but I was with some friends. This was a few years ago now, I did have a boyfriend – of the vanilla variety – but he wasn’t with me. The actual outfit was chosen by an online “friend” I had at the time, who I was messing around with to get my D/s kicks during the time when I wasn’t getting enough of them in real-life.

Just general little things I did throughout the evening – flirting, trying to show a little extra cleavage or leg on occasion, and several occasions of hiking my dress up to adjust my stocking tops at quiet times when it was feasible to think I was generally alone or out of view, but when really I knew there was somebody who could clearly see me. And of course I got groped a few times out on the dancefloor – and I’m fairly sure those guys would have realised my underwear choices (or lack thereof) for the evening.

My behaviour for the evening was generally instructed of me by my online friend as well, and he also had one final instruction of me – to do something extra slutty and out of character. But he did remind me to stay safe as well.

One of my girl friends that I was with was getting quite friendly with a guy, that guy was there with a friend, so when I was hanging with her at various points during the evening, I ended up chatting with him a little. And as the evening progressed and my friend wanted to leave with the guys, she convinced me to go with them, up to their hotel room. I had no intention of having sex with anybody, so this story isn’t going where you are thinking… but I thought about my “extra slutty, out of character” instruction, and I thought there was some room for manoeuvre here without going too far.

But back at their hotel room, we had another drink and we progressed to playing cards for some reason, don’t know why. Which then progressed into my friend – not one of the guys – making a “strip poker” joke/comment, and before you know it, we all agreed, and I’d pretty much decided that my “out of character” task would be that I would take my dress off and reveal what I was (and wasn’t) wearing beneath it.

Shockingly, and probably thankfully, I wasn’t the first to lose a hand. My friend lost first, taking her top off to show off her bra underneath, then my friends guy lost his top as well before I lost. When I lost I got up slowly, turned around so my back was to everybody, unzipped my dress at the back and slowly lowered it down, glancing over occasionally, watching everybody’s jaws slowly drop as it got lower and lower and they realised how little I had on underneath. Once it was off I used my hands and arms to cover my breasts and pussy and sat back down at the table, still doing all I could to cover up. It was so amazingly exciting and exhilarating.

I probably should take this moment to mention another “accessory” that was part of my outfit, chosen by my online friend. A set of “Love Balls” inserted inside me. So not only was I incredibly horny already from having them in all night, I had to take extra care covering myself up to make sure they weren’t noticed, and the horniness of the whole situation didn’t do anything to help me in any way. A horny girl in a horny situation trying not to do anything too naughty is a very difficult situation indeed.

Anyway, just one more hand of cards later, and we decided to call it a night. It was getting late already, and the game was already starting to lose some focus with my quick loss of all my clothes. So we all put whatever clothes we’d lost back on, and the one guy walked me back to mine and my friends hotel room, while my friend and her guy got their chance to say goodnight in a little more privacy. So we walked down the hall, down in the lift to our floor, and onto our room, just sharing idle chit-chat. When we got to my door I think he obviously wanted a little more than I was going to give him. I let him down as gently as possible, we shared a kiss and I went inside and he went on his way. Hopefully I’d given him a fantasy situation to think about when he got back to his room! Lol

About 15 minutes later my friend arrived back to our hotel room – she’d had a “quicky” with the guy she was with before leaving, and was a little disappointed I hadn’t kept the other guy “occupied” longer to give her a little (or a lot) more time.

My friend and her guy actually dated for a few months after this – I never saw either of the guys again though, which was a bonus really as that is what I’d really hoped for!! My sultry strip in front of strangers I only saw once. A slutty girl fantasy come true!

And that was about it for that particular black tie event. And I think I passed all of my tasks and instructions from my online friend and he was very happy and excited to read my very detailed report of the evening’s events.

Sorry for the briefness and randomness of this blog – I do have an exciting series of blogs planned and in progress looking at my descent into the D/s lifestyle. I really hope you’ll enjoy that series, it’s looking like it will be split out over about 5+ blogs and probably over a two month time-frame. I’ll hopefully post other blogs between them as well though, to keep things spiced up!

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Has anybody missed me? It’s been a long time hasn’t it?

I’ve just been busy with so many commitments as of late, that I just haven’t been able to find the time to sit down properly in the right frame of mind to actually write any interesting blogs.

But I am really sorry – to make it up to you… free blow jobs for all… please form an orderly queue!! Haha

25 days to go until I get my exam results to see just how badly I failed the exam that I didn’t do any study for whatsoever. I know I’ve failed, but is it wrong of me to still hold out the feint hope that maybe I scraped through? I have to say, if by some miracle I do pass, then I’ll be dancing through the streets naked cone August 17th!!

I overheard a couple of guys I work with (well I say work with – they work for the same company but not the same department, so they’re more work acquaintances than work colleagues) having a conversation a few weeks ago. They were making some very graphic comments about a certain little blogslut and the way she was dressed. I was wearing a very short skirt and some particularly high stiletto heels that day and spent a good few minutes bent over my desk in a slightly provocative way as I messed with the wires round the back of my computer screen as it wasn’t working properly. Their thoughts to each other were based around this situation and the animalistic impulse desires they may have had at that time. Unfortunately their conversation was cut a little short by me having to turn the corner into the part of the corridor they were in, leaving them wondering if I’d heard any of their conversation and how much. I had heard enough – I had stood around the corner for 20 seconds or so, eavesdropping, before I turned the corner to interrupt them. I had to hide the huge grin on my face as I nonchalantly passed them with a “hi” and a small smile. I love the affect I have on guys on those days when I really “slut it up” for work!

How often do I “slut it up” for work, I hear you ask? I like to look at it this way – if a girl was to wear a mini-skirt to work every day, people would just expect to see her in a mini skirt and it would be no big deal. However, if she wears a mini skirt once every couple of weeks, then every time she walks into the room, all heads will turn as they think “is it going to be today?”. That’s my philosophy – do it enough to keep up peoples lustful hope, but not too often so as to keep them wanting.

I’m hoping to update my blog with several shorter blogs over the coming weeks to keep the blog ticking over, and to keep me in all of your lustful thoughts on a more regular basis. So if there are any questions you want to ask me that you’d like me to answer in this blog, then please, please e-mail them to me/us at blogslut13@yahoo.co.uk.

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Until next time everybody – take care, and have fun! :-) xx

Hi everybody,

It’s been a while since you heard from me, I know, and I am truly sorry. Thanks for all the e-mails asking where I was and if I was okay etc. It makes me realise that you do care! Lol

I’m back in study mode at the moment, as I try once again to be the hottest and sexiest college chick around and pick up my accountancy studies again after an 18 month break. I really haven’t done as much work as I should have though, especially with my exam less than two weeks away. To indicate how little work I have actually done, I’m taking a paper on corporate and business LAW, but up until a week ago, I thought it was corporate and business TAX that my paper was on! I think that really shows how unprepared I am, and also the fact that my study text books were still in their original cellophane wrapping until just days ago!

I think I may have to pull out the big guns for this one. With the exam format being that the passing mark changes depending on how well everybody does, if lots of people get high marks, the pass mark may be 60%, if most people do poorly, the pass mark could be 50%. So it gets me thinking, how few clothes would I have to wear to my exam to distract everybody enough that they all do so poorly that I can scrape a pass having not particularly studied at all? Oh, life’s big questions, how you torture me so!

I’ve been incredibly busy lately even without study though. I’m a bit of a go-to-girl at work when it comes to problem solving projects. It’s like the other side of me that often gets overlooked in this blog. I overlook my super intelligence and brilliance in favour of my sluttiness! LOL. But in all seriousness, at work I often get given the problem projects or tasks, with the reasoning being that I love a challenge to sink my teeth into, and I’m pretty good at getting to the bottom of things, solving the problems, and creating new checks and procedures that help prevent them from becoming a problem again. I think I’m so good at it due to my determination and abilities combined with my friendly, flirty nature. I find it’s a lot easier to solve problems when you have the type of personality that encourages people to want to help you, and I feel I have that. It almost feels like I’m in a work performance review here instead of writing a blog! Lol. So I spend a lot of time at work getting things handed over to me to work on, and then handing things back over when I’ve done what I need to do on them. The problem with this is when the crossovers become a bit tight, I get handed a new thing to do on the assumption that something else is winding down and is ready to be handed back over to somebody else, but if there are any delays, I end up hanging onto things for a month or so extra, and suddenly my workload is incredibly full and I have too many balls to juggle.

I like to liken it to an orgy – once you get more than three guys in there, suddenly I run out of places to put them! LOL

So, to sum it up, currently at work I have a few too many guys, I’ve ran out of places to put them, and they’re all feeling a little neglected that I’m not giving them as much attention as they deserve, which causes me to work extra hard and put in the extra hours to make the extra time to dedicate to each one.

And away from work, we went away on holiday a few weeks ago. It wasn’t a big holiday, we like to call it our secondary holiday – a cheap and cheerful week in the South Wales countryside. We’ll do a bigger, better, “sun, sea, and sand” holiday in a few months time, which will be our primary holiday for the year.

We had a really good time though, I love doing countryside holidays as I get to take my dogs with us and spend some quality time with them in giant parks, fields and beaches just having a blast. And originally being a South Wales starlet myself, and being damn proud of that fact, I also love any chance I get to head back to home soil.

And after quite a few trips to South Wales in the past couple of years that I’ve dragged J along to, he has finally agreed with me that South Wales has by far the prettiest female population around. Everywhere you go, gorgeous and beautiful girls everywhere. I always stood by the fact that Wales was full of the pretty people of the world, but J was never truly convinced. Despite the fact that’s where I come from, surely he wouldn’t need any more proof than that!! LOL. But he had to agree this time as I pointed out every pretty girl we saw on our trip, and there was no denying that I pointed out a lot of girls!

It always reminded me of one of my Dad’s favourite quotes – my dad being a stout northern Englishman who met my stunning and beautiful (and Welsh) mother whilst he was working in Wales nearly 30 years ago. He always used to say in an absolutely awful put-on Welsh accent, “They sure make them pretty in the valleys!” It was a joke at my mum’s expense really, as she has a really thick but natural Welsh accent. I’m somewhere in between if anybody was wondering, I have a noticeable but slight Welsh twang left in my otherwise accent-less voice.

Anyway, I just wanted to check in with everybody to say hello, and assure you all that I’m still alive and kicking! I’m going to go hit the books hard for a few weeks now and hopefully pass my exam and put myself back firmly on the path of becoming a financial whiz on the way to earning the big bucks.

So I’ll speak to you all again in the first couple of weeks of June! Hopefully in a positive “my exam went well” type of mood!

Lots of love and kisses

Your faithful Blogslut xx

Hey everybody,

It’s been a while since I blogged, hasn’t it? My sincere apologies to you all – sometimes life gets the better of me and I just don’t have the time to sit down and write, or type as the case may be.

I still have the previously promised “week in my life” and “Christmas Party aftermath” blogs in the works, but for now I just have a real-life tale of the events of last weekend to regale to you all.

Last weekend Master J’s brother came to stay with us for a few days, visiting from “down south”. Now I know some of you at this point may be thinking that this could be a tale of “sharing my love”, so to speak, as I have mentioned previously that we are looking into the right opportunities to add others into our relationship. However, this wasn’t really one of those... well, not exactly.

Now J and his brother – let’s call him “S” for the purposes of this blog – are fairly close, but they’re not close enough to share lovers with each other! They do however have a friendly, brotherly, rivalry going on. It’s a typical boy thing, I think. They are close in age, so from what I gather growing up, they were always rivals over girls, always going up against each other to get the attentions of the same pretty girl. And when they weren’t doing this, they were rivals over everything else too – who was smartest, who was funniest, who was better looking, who had the better haircut, and of course, who had the hottest date or girlfriend. Boys will be boys, eh!? Lol

Anyway, many years on, they are now in their fifties, but they are still the same young men as they always were – always trying to one-up the other.

And I was the latest pawn in their game this past weekend. A willing pawn I might add – after all, I am at my happiest when I’m being a downright tease for J’s amusement! Lol

Yes, I have met S many times before, and yes I have been “shown off” to him by J trying to one-up his rival, in a “look what I get to go to bed with” kind of way. That sounds a bit conceited actually now I see that in type. I’m not saying I’m the hottest girl in the world or anything like that, but I am a sexy, sexual, feminine woman, and I’m 26 Goddammit. So I surely must be considered a decent bit of arm candy for a guy in his fifties! Even if that guy in his fifties is a suave, sophisticated, gorgeously handsome stallion of a man! ;-p hehe

And no, S doesn’t really know too much about the “alternative” side of mine and J’s relationship. It’s not hidden from him, it’s just not talked about outright. I don’t know what he suspects or what he see mine and J’s relationship as being – maybe he, and many others, just see me as the slutty, nymph, trophy-girlfriend of a successful older gentleman!! Lol

But last weekend J upped the ante with regards to showing me off to S. Lots of very sexy and revealing outfits worn by me – very sexy negligees with an open robe, the tiniest of towels wrapped around me as I walk around the house in the morning after my shower or bubble-bath, lots of outfits consisting of stockings and heels with lots of unnecessary bending etc, and a very slutty little dress for dinner out on Saturday. And we even moved the bedroom furniture around so the head of our bed was against the wall adjoining the master bedroom with the guest room, and the bed in the guestroom – yes you guessed it, was up against the same wall. So our beds were just inches apart, separated by a wall that doesn’t do much to prevent sound from escaping through! And we had lots of noisy sex, with lots of dirty talk during it including descriptions of what we were doing, and we even really tried to give the game away of the alternative side of our relationships, with lots of very submissive words and phrases thrown in – like me saying “Master” or “ fuck YOUR pussy”, or J referring to me as “HIS slut” etc. It was a really hot thing to do and worked in getting me nice and horny and ready for anything. And it was even hotter when we heard slight groans and moans coming from the other room as S must have been masturbating to us!! So hot!!

And then there was the special challenge of the weekend. It was a challenge to see how far I could go without giving the game away, combined with a test to see how far S would allow it to go.

First let me give you the back-story, as this challenge was thought up by J last time we met with S a couple of months ago. I happened to mention that from behind you couldn’t really tell them apart. Same height; same build; same general hair style; same hair colour. We were at a local drinking establishment and J was at the bar ordering some drinks as I was coming back from the ladies, I spotted him and was about to go over to him, maybe give his ass a little squeeze, give him a hug, and tell him how sexy he looked. Then out of the corner of my eye I saw J on the other side of the room. It was actually S at the bar, not J!! I was a little embarrassed that I couldn’t recognise my own boyfriend, but I brought it up to J in private later on in the night, and he had a little chuckle and got a strange grin on his face. I asked what he was grinning at, but he wouldn’t tell me, as he often doesn’t – his mind stores up these ideas for future reference, it’s one of the things I love about him!

So I’d forgotten all about that, but the day before S came to stay, J brought it up in conversation and said he had a challenge for me for the weekend. “Oh really?” I smiled at him. “What is the challenge?” So he told me all about his plan, which had obviously been developing and hatching like an incubated egg in his devious and brilliant brain since I obliviously planted the seed several weeks earlier.

What he wanted me to do was go up behind S at some point during the weekend, and, pretending that I thought he was J, grope him, run my hands over him, rub myself up against him, reach around and grab his cock. You get the picture. The challenge to me was how long I could keep it going before I had to “realise” it wasn’t J. The flip side was that it was a test of S – how long would it take for him to stop me??

So I spent the weekend trying to find the right opportunity – my first chance came on the Saturday. I wrapped my arms around him and rubbed his crotch through his trousers. Then he turned around and said “babe, you’re not going to win your challenge this way!” It was actually J I was fondling. How foolish and embarrassed did I feel at that moment. But J’s hand on my shoulder pushed me to my knees with a comment of “but while you’re here and so desperate to get me hard...” A blow job and a mouth and chinful of cum later we were finished and S walked into the room just as I was wiping the last bit of cum from my chin with my finger and licking it off. I gave a coy and innocent smile before leaving the room.

Okay, so I messed up that time, but as I came out of the shower wearing nothing but a towel on Sunday morning I saw J in the bedroom, and then headed downstairs to the kitchen. There was S with his back to me at the kitchen counter, he hadn’t heard me come in, I was barefoot and am light footed after all. My heart began to pound inside my chest as I realised this was my ideal opportunity for my weekend challenge, and the nerves and excitement ran riot inside me. I slipped my hands around his waist and up to his chest and hugged his back tightly and said “hey sexy” in a sexy, throaty kind of voice. He just kind of froze and didn’t respond. I ran my hand down to his crotch and still hugging him tightly with my face against his back, let out an “mmmm” type of sound. Still he was silent. I started rubbing and caressing his cock over his clothes and he began getting VERY hard VERY quickly. But other than a very quiet moan, he was still silent. I wondered why he wasn’t stopping me? I pulled my towel off and threw it on the counter in front of him as I slipped my hand down his pants and gripped his now rock solid cock and began pumping my hand up and down it. I was getting quite into it and his lack of stopping me just made me more determined. Determined to do what I don’t know!! It was at this point I realised that I hadn’t actually made it clear that I thought he was J. I could have been meaning to seduce him as far as he was concerned. So I said “how about a quicky before S comes down?” I thought this made it clear that it was a case of mistaken identity, and I was expecting him to stop me now. But he made no attempt to stop me, and just let out a moan of approval. I got a little worried at this point – how far was S going to let this go? How far was I going to let this go, because I was still giving him all my best effort in my hand job and it didn’t appear like I was going to stop this either. I was as horny as hell and had a hard cock in my hand, this is where my weakness comes in – no willpower to say no!!

I tried to think on my feet, formulate a plan, whilst continuing to pump his cock with my hand. Could I just get him off this way, and then walk away, never having him turn around, end this with him getting a free hand job and thinking that I thought it was J all along? That could have been my best plan, but I had another that I thought to be better in the spur of the moment. I was going to drop to me knees, turn him around, then look up, see it was S and not J, pretend to be shocked, apologise, and that would be the end of it. That way I’d end this before it went too far, and get a good look at his cock as well, which at this point was something I really wanted to do. So I started out with that plan, I turned him around as I started my journey southward into a crouched position. It went fine up until that point, exactly to plan. Now I just needed to look up, look shocked and it was all over. But, there’s always a but with me in these situations, I forgot something. I have a nice big cock about an inch away from my face – it’s not in my nature not so suck it just a little!! And it was a pretty nice cock – not quite as impressive as J’s, but still a very impressive tool. So my brain was screaming, “look up”, but I just closed my eyes slightly and started moving my head toward it. And again, he made no attempt to stop me, he actually placed one hand on my head to help guide me. I ran my tongue teasingly around the head and up the shaft slightly. Again, my brain was screaming at me – “LOOK UP AND END THIS NOW!” But still my eyes remained transfixed, and the other part of my brain said something else to me – “if he’s going to get a blow-job from me even for a few seconds, make sure it ends with him thinking it’s the best damn blow job he’s ever had!”

Guess which part of my brain I listened to? Yup, I went right the way down on him, his cock went into my throat, his balls touched my chin, my nose nestled in his pubic hair. Then I withdrew until I just had the head in my mouth, then I went all the way down again, then I withdrew again. I knew I had to look up soon, and that’s what I did right then – our eyes met, the head of his cock still between my lips, his hand in my hair on the back of my head. He had a look on his face that was a delicious mix of pleasure and lust, before a look of panic kicked in as he realised I was looking up at him and must now know it was S, and not J, who I was sucking on with unadulterated passion.

I have to admit – I nearly carried on regardless, but common sense did finally kick in and after what seemed like ten minutes of crouching there looking up at him – although it was only mere seconds – I pulled away from him. I feigned shock, actually I didn’t have to feign shock, I was actually shocked – shocked that I hadn’t stopped myself earlier. I didn’t have to feign guilt either, that also came very naturally. I apologised as I stood back up. “I’m so sorry, I thought you were J, I’m so sorry!” I grabbed my towel from the counter behind him, pressing myself up against his throbbing cock in the process. Then I backed away apologising again, before turning around and leaving the room. I still hadn’t fully put my towel back on, I was actually consciously making sure he saw me fully naked – I wanted him to remember this moment, and I wanted to add icing to this slutty cake of a story for when I told J about it in very intimate detail later.

To show you the aftermath of this event, I will say that S was a little uneasy around both me and J for the rest of that day. I knew I had to fix that as I didn’t want to make S feel uncomfortable to ever talk to his brother again, so later that day when we all sat down together I brought it up in a jokey manner. Telling J that I mistook S for him earlier and went to get a little amorous, and who knows what would have happened if S hadn’t stopped me! I looked over at S and smiled, letting him know everything was okay. J laughed and jokingly retorted that S should have held out for a blow job, that was my speciality! (Note that I had told J the short version of what had happened prior to this, so his joke was a little close to the bone, as I think he still wanted S to feel a little guilty about it – a little harsh in my opinion as J had set it all up!) But despite that joke, things did get a little less icy after this and things got back to normal, and me and S even had a little joke about it in private – I told him that it was just one of those things and lets not worry about it at all. He told me, with a smile, that he definitely agreed about “my speciality”, and I told him he was pretty impressive too. And I really don’t think we’ll act any differently around each other after this, which is definitely a good thing. And I don’t think it will have any effect on the relationship between J and S either.

The other aftermath of this event is that although J did get the brief version of what happened straight after, he did get the full and very detailed version the day after as well. And he fucked my brains out while I told it, it got us both so hot and horny. He loves setting me slutty challenges and he loves hearing all about it afterwards if he didn’t witness it himself. Or even if he did witness it, he likes to hear my version anyway as he loves knowing my thoughts and feelings throughout. It’s one of the main reasons I love doing slutty challenges for him. I just wonder how slutty will these challenges get as time goes by, J loves pushing my boundaries, and our games have slowly progressed from flirting and teasing, to fairly innocent contact, and now to contact that is a little less innocent. Where will they go from here? Where can they go from here? Who knows, but as always, I’m sure it will be quite the journey and experience, and I’ll try and share some of it with you guys here at my blog!

Until next time...

Love, Blogslut xx

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A bit of a shocker in the results of my poll, which finished on Saturday.

The longtime leader as your choice for what I would wear with my “little red dress” for our Valentines Evening out was black seamed stockings, with a black 6 strap suspender belt, and no underwear. There was a fairly close second, but I didn’t think it was going to catch up, but as the final day, hours, and minutes whittled away, the former second place entry of black seamed stockings, red six strap suspender belt, and red underwear took the lead and charged to victory.

J was pulling for the black suspender belt and no underwear option, (I was trying to stay completely impartial), and I think he’d been thinking about that one for days, planning what he could get me to do with that particular combo under my dress, so he was sorely disappointed at the results. But we did agree to go with whatever the public voted, and we certainly weren’t going to back out of that promise.

But in all seriousness, I received a whopping 86 votes in my near two week poll, for which I am very grateful to each and every one of you who voted and made it such a success. There will be future polls – if anybody wants to chip in with some ideas about what they could be, all ideas are welcome – blogslut13@yahoo.co.uk

So back to Saturday, our plan was to go out for dinner, then on to one or two pubs for some after dinner drinks and what not, and then we had a hotel booked as we decided to travel 25-30 miles or so away from where we live so we were somewhere we’d generally consider as unknown territory. After all, if you’re going out with the intention of possibly being a bit naughty, you don’t want to run in to everybody you know, do you?! lol. And a hotel only works out a tad more than the taxi fares there and back, plus is much more convenient.

We decided to head out to the hotel first to drop off the car and our bag, J had thrown a bag together, which included my outfit for the evening, including the undergarments chosen by my loving blog readers. We were just about to head off – I’d half done my hair and make-up but still had some fairly casual clothes on, but J looked at me with a devious grin as he got me my coat, but wouldn’t give it to me. “You can’t go out dressed like that” he said to me, “you know there’s only one outfit you’re allowed to wear out this evening”. At first I looked at him puzzled, and replied by telling him that was already packed in the bag, which is when I caught on to what he meant, and with a knowing smile and a mock annoyed tone asked him, “So, what AM I supposed to wear to the hotel then?”. He held out my coat and said “just this.”

Already I could tell it was going to be a mischievous evening that was ahead, and I stripped out of all my clothes, including underwear, just leaving me in my high heel shoes… it was indeed going to be a mischievous evening, but I expected it would probably also be a fun one… a really fun one perhaps!

As J handed me my coat, he removed the belt that went around the waist and would be tied at the front. Now at this point, let me explain this particular coat to you all, it’s a little black leather jacket, it goes past my bottom but not by much, so length-wise it sits on my mid-to-upper thigh. It used to have both buttons and the belt tie to do it up, but quite a while ago, we cut all the buttons off to use it in a different task/challenge we did, so usually the only way it does up is to tie the belt at the front. So you get the picture – a coat with no buttons and no tie belt, me naked underneath, holding my handbag/purse in one hand. The exhibitionistic nature that this night was to take was shaping up already.

During the motorway and main road parts of the car journey to the hotel, which took about half an hour or so in total, I sat in the passenger seat of the car with my coat enticingly open, as I’d been told to do, giving passing motorists a glimpse of much more than they should be seeing, and I’d like to take this opportunity to say thanks to the mystery blue van driver who honked his horn as he passed! ;-p.

We also stopped for petrol, and I went in to pay, barely covered in my little coat, and trying my best to hold my coat closed with my arm whlst using both hands to rummage through my bag to find my money. Other than showing far too much cleavage, way more than would have been possible to show if I had a top on under my coat, I don’t think the kiosk attendant saw much, but I bet he was keenly watching the security cameras as I left and went back to the car!

Arriving at the hotel shortly after, we checked in, again I tried my best to keep myself covered with the one hand I was permitted to use to do so. J told me I could only use my right hand, so I had to let go to sign in and everything, being right handed, but luckily hotel front desks are fairly high nowadays, so my modesty was mostly covered! And he then made me remove my coat during our walk down the corridor from the lift to our room, as I looked around worriedly to see if there was a security camera in that part of the corridor. I didn’t see one, but that doesn’t mean there wasn’t one somewhere, and we nearly got caught by a couple who came around the corner at the other end of the corridor as we were opening our door and going inside.

By the time we got into our room, our dinner reservations weren’t too far in the distance, so there wasn’t time for much naughtiness straight away, just some general kissing and fondling before and during getting ready. So I finished doing my hair and make-up, and got dressed to look my slutty best in my chosen outfit – a lacy pair of red thong panties, a red 6 strap suspender belt with the straps shortened as much as possible to keep my black fully fashioned gio seamed stockings as high on my thighs as possible, red 4.5” stiletto heel slingback shoes, and of course my little red dress. A daringly flirtatious cleavage on show without a bra underneath, and an even more daringly flirtatious mini floaty skirt that just about covers the darker tops of my stockings, and, with the help of my stocking’s seams, accentuates the long length of my legs! Accessorised with some simple white gold jewellery, including my favourite piece of “submissive” jewellery – a white gold diamond encrusted heart necklace with the word “slut” subtly engraved onto the back of the heart pendant. It’s such a secret, sexy item of jewellery to wear.

We left the hotel shortly after we were ready, and decided to walk to the restaurant, which was only 5 minutes away. It was a cool, but not too cold, night, and I didn’t wear a coat, it would just spoil the vision of me and my dress, and that’s what this was really all about. The crisp breeze had my nipples on edge as we walked, I felt so many pairs of eyes transfix on me as we passed them, I could see their heads follow me until I could just feel the burning in my back, wondering how long they’d carried on staring, but not looking back to find out. I also got a couple of fairly nice whistles and jeers, and a few more very crude jeers and remarks from a group of young guys. J would squeeze my hand tightly every now and then, and look across and smile at me, just letting me know he was proud of me, and frankly, that is all the encouragement I ever need!

We had a lovely meal at the nice little intimate Italian restaurant. It was really dolled up with the spirit of Valentines Day, candles and hearts galore. My dress sat high on my thighs as we sat and ate, and I felt a little sorry for the girl of the couple sat across from us as her date seemed to spend major chunks of his evening glancing over her shoulder at me. And J said that when I went to the ladies room and he saw me walk away from the table and noticed my seams it looked like he almost shot his load right there at the table! lol

As I said, the dinner was nice, and I definitely noticed getting little bits of attention here and there. Usually a mixture of shock and appreciation from guys, and a few “scowls” from some girls. We’d already drank a full bottle of wine between us over dinner, but we moved on for some more drinks, and maybe a bit of dancing. The issue with the age gap between J and myself does often get in the way of us going out dancing together, as he doesn’t like a lot of the places that I may occasionally frequent with some of my friends. But we had a really good time, starting out with a couple of drinks at a very expensive posh bar, and then on to a much friendlier pub that was very busy as it was having a bit of a Valentines party with music, love songs, and all the trimmings. We had great fun for quite a while here, drinking quite a bit more, and we actually had a bit of a dance, which got my dress moving enough to get me flashing lots of thigh and underwear to lots of people, and we just generally had a really good time. I had a bit of attention from a few people, mostly nice, friendly, flirty fun, which is fine with me as I’m happy to be a bit of a teasing flirt sometimes. And me and J got a little friendly with some kissing and touchy-feely fun as a few guys did a very bad job of pretending that they weren’t watching intently!! Lol

The evening was all about a bit of exhibitionist fun though, it was all set up to be this way, especially as it was, in small part, a punishment for me for various things.

But I did say this was a FULL Valentines report, so it would be wrong of me to not carry on to what happened after we walked (or should I say stumbled) back to the hotel!! Lol.

Back at the hotel, we were a little drunk, and were getting a little frisky on the way back to our room, but once inside our room, J reached into our suitcase and pulled out our video camera! We don’t make our own video’s often, so I guess you could say this was a “special occasion”. It then all started with me doing a sexy strip tease for J, who was holding the video camera. This is the one part of any video that we make that I always cringe at when watching it back. I’m sure guys would find my strip/dance sexy and arousing, but I personally find it difficult to watch it back! Lol. After this we moved on to some oral sex, and the camera soon went on to its stand so J could concentrate fully on the task at hand. I remember being quite vocal with the dirty talk, but I couldn’t really remember what exactly I said until watching some of the video back on Sunday, so while giving him a very slow, sensuous and erotic blow job, I basically did a ten minute monologue (during the times my mouth wasn’t full lol) about how much I loved his cock and about how it was the best and most perfect cock that I had ever seen, touched, sucked, or fucked. From its perfect length and thickness, to how it tastes, to how it feels when it’s throbbing on my tongue or pushing against my throat. I must admit, I’ve realised how sometimes I find that really embarrassing when watching myself back on video as well. Sweet, innocent, mild-mannered me – saying some of the dirtiest and most disgusting things whilst in the throws of passion. A lot of the time I don’t consciously realise what I’m saying at these times, so I don’t fully realise the content until times like this when I can watch it back, and the things I say and do make me blush as dark red as a beetroot. Hell, what I say and do would make even a whore blush – yes, my dirty talk can be THAT x-rated!

The video that we made lasts about an hour and is possibly the hottest video that we’ve ever made of ourselves, as after my strip and blow job, we went on to have a very frenzied evening of drunken sex, the kind of unbridled abandoned fucking that you can only ever pull off when you’ve had a bit too much alcohol, which came across very well on camera as we occasionally switched from having it on the stand to J holding it. He took me from behind over the dressing table, I rode him like a cowgirl with me on top on the bed, and he tied my hands with his tie and took me hard on my back with my legs up over his shoulders, which was a particular hot scene to watch back mainly because my legs look amazing in my stockings and heels, which I still had on. We finished off with some anal sex with me on top, which is our favoured anal sex position, and the video finally ends with about ten minutes of us just lying on the bed, naked and spent before one of us finally found the energy to get up and turn the camera off.

Like I said, I don’t mind watching myself on video that much as from a personal standpoint, just judging my “performance”, I’m quite a vocal and proactive lover, rather than a lie-back and take it kind of lover. Of course I also get to see every embarrassing sex face I pull, and a close-up unhidden view (and unflattering angle) of all the parts of my body that I’m not 100% happy about. But I think it’s one of those things you have to take in context, and the overall quality of our video’s, and this one in particular, although obviously amateur is very hot and steamy, and I am definitely okay with watching it back while getting amorous in the future – as we did on Sunday afternoon actually! Lol. Although, that was just research for this blog of course! Hehe.

But it’s a rare occasion when we do make a video – and I think this is only the fourth one we’ve ever done, and we’ve been together 2 and a half years, so it’s hardly a regular occurrence, which is what makes it more special and fun when we do actually do it. I don’t see it being as fun or as special if we had a back catalogue of dozens, or even hundreds of videos!

We had a great fun filled evening overall, from start to finish, and it was great to just be able to “let go” for the evening, get away from the normal routine, and have a big night. And for anybody wondering, J did actually back me a little casual dress for me to wear home on Sunday morning, so I didn’t go home naked or in my red dress!

And for all of those that I’m sure will ask – no, you can’t see the video!! Lol

But it does open up a discussion topic or two – have you ever made a naughty video of yourself? Who has seen these videos? Do you enjoy watching your own video’s back? And what parts of your video’s do you cringe at when watching them back? I’d love to hear some opinions and views on this. Plus, all blog feedback, questions, and general chat is always welcome – e-mail me at blogslut13@yahoo.co.uk – or leave some comments on my blog!

Another Poll Update…

Thanks again to everybody who has helped me decide what to wear with my Valentines Day Red mini dress so far. :-) Less than one day to go til the poll closes now!

I’m not sure how legitimate these results are going to be though, as I have a feeling people may be cheating as I let everybody vote as many times as they wanted. On my last update there were 55 votes cast, and five votes between the top two. Six votes later and the choice that was in second place was leading by one vote. Did one person go on and vote for their choice six times to put it into the lead? That is the question… anybody want to come clean?? Lol

In all seriousness though, I did say you could vote more than once – I was hoping people would be responsible and not manipulate the results, but it’s all just a bit of fun anyway, so there’s no harm done!! But maybe next time I will limit it to one vote per IP address to ensure a bit more fairness in the voting…we’re not in Florida now boys and girls!! lol

With a whopping 80 votes cast at this point, I’m very proud of how this first poll is turning out. And these are my poll stats as they stand right now. It’s very close at the top, so anything could happen between now and tomorrow (Feb 14th) when it closes.

1) 36% Black Seamed Stockings, Black Suspender Belt, No Underwear

2) 35% Black Seamed Stockings, Red Suspender Belt, Red Underwear

3) 15% Black Seamed Stockings, Black Suspender Belt, Black Underwear

4) 6% Black Fishnet Stockings, Red Suspender Belt, No Underwear

5) 4% Red Fishnet Hold-ups, No Underwear

6) 3% Black Fishnet Stockings, Red Suspender Belt, Red Underwear

7) 1% Black Fishnet Stockings, Black Suspender Belt, Black Underwear

8=) 0% Black Fishnet Hold-ups, Black Underwear

8=) 0% Black Fishnet Hold-ups, No Underwear

8=) 0% Red Fishnet Hold-ups, Red Underwear

I look forward to getting the final results tomorrow, and I will update you all with the events of the evening in the early part of next week.

Also, I just want to apologise to those that logged onto yahoo messenger today to chat to me. A few things came up fairly last minute so I’ve barely been online today at all.

Thanks everybody for your support.

Blogslut xx

Hi everybody,

I’m a little pushed for time at the moment, as it’s budget time at work and I’m drowning in spreadsheets, and macros, and pivot tables, and all the other fun stuff that makes up my work days.

And to top it all off, I just wrote pretty much an entire blog in word, my computer crashed and I lost it all as I hadn’t hit save yet!!

Anyway, as I don’t have time to re-write it, I just wanted to get a blog of some sorts out today, so I’m just going to tell you of some upcoming blog topics, some general plans, and an update on the poll I posted last week.

Upcoming Blogs…

I have a few blogs in the pipeline, including…

-A follow on to my “Dreaded Office Christmas Party” blog from December.

-A week in my life where I give a bit of detail of my day to day tasks etc on a given week.

-And I’ve also been chatting to a couple of people recently about how I keep healthy and in shape and the impact that has on my relationship, and also just the general impact that looking and feeling good has on the D/s relationship, so I’m going to share some of my thoughts and experiences on this topic.

-And obviously I will blog with the results of my poll after Saturday as well.

And I also want to do a big Q&A session type of blog, where you can all get to know me a bit better, as I answer a whole bunch of questions that you want to know the answers to. I need some interactivity for this one though – so e-mail me your questions, no matter how big or small, whether it be a question about my submissive past, a question about my vanilla past, my favourite sexual position, my favourite music band, the last movie I watched, no matter what the question, no matter how big or small, no matter how clean or dirty… e-mail them to me at blogslut13@yahoo.co.uk, or click on this link and use my e-mail form (you can also keep your e-mail address anonymous by doing it this way if you so wished)… http://blogslut.bravehost.com/emailme.html

Please let me know if there is any blog you are looking forward to, or if you have any thoughts on future blog topics. Sometimes I need a bit of inspiration to write!! :-)

Chat Time…

This coming Friday, the ominous Friday 13th February, I may be online in messenger chat mode for part of the daytime (sometime between 10 a.m. and 5 p.m. UK time), so if anybody is around and wants to chat, add me to your yahoo messenger (blogslut13@yahoo.co.uk), and we’ll see if we catch each other. I am busy with other things during the day, so I cannot confirm how available I will be at any specific time. But e-mail me before then if you’re only available at a certain time and we’ll see if we can work something out. Otherwise, just log on during the day and say hi if I’m online! :-) Please note, by chat I do mean chat, not webcam, and not cyber sex!

Poll Update…

Thanks to everybody who has helped me decide what to wear with my Valentines Day Red mini dress so far. :-)

With 55 votes cast so far, these are my poll stats as they stand right now. There are still several days to change it though – you can vote up until mid afternoon UK time on Saturday 14th February.

1) 40% Black Seamed Stockings, Black Suspender Belt, No Underwear

2) 29% Black Seamed Stockings, Red Suspender Belt, Red Underwear

3) 18% Black Seamed Stockings, Black Suspender Belt, Black Underwear

4) 9% Black Fishnet Stockings, Red Suspender Belt, No Underwear

5) 4% Black Fishnet Stockings, Red Suspender Belt, Red Underwear

6=) 0% Black Fishnet Stockings, Black Suspender Belt, Black Underwear

6=) 0% Black Fishnet Hold-ups, Black Underwear

6=) 0% Black Fishnet Hold-ups, No Underwear

6=) 0% Red Fishnet Hold-ups, Red Underwear

6=) 0% Red Fishnet Hold-ups, No Underwear

Some people have experienced difficulties accessing my little web-site that I use to host my poll, so if you’re one of those people, but want to cast your vote – please e-mail your vote to me at blogslut13@yahoo.co.uk and I’ll input your votes for you. The above are your choices, and you can vote more than once if you want to.

I will blog next week about my outfit and just in general about our Valentines Day date as well!

Take care everybody

Blogslut xx

To kick off February with some blog interactivity, by utilising my new web-poll, you have the best part of two weeks to cast your vote and help me decide part of my outfit for a meal and some drinks out on Valentines Day, Saturday 14th February. This is hopefully a bit of a tester to see if you want this kind of feature in the blog – so please vote if you want to keep polls etc a part of this blog in the future.

For one of my Christmas Parties in December, J had set my outfit to be a very short and flowy red mini-dress, with stockings worn underneath. Due to the fact that the dress was a little TOO short, and no matter which stockings I put on with it, my stocking tops were visible even when standing, and due to the fact it was a work based function, I convinced J to let me go without stockings on that occasion. But as always with last minute outfit changes, a forfeit had to be paid. There was a few forfeits related to this, and the one remaining forfeit that I have to do is to actually wear this dress out at a future date with stockings on (or stockings showing as the case may be!).

We’ve decided that this future occasion will be Valentines Day.

And we’ve also decided that you loyal readers of my blog can have a hand in helping pick part of this Valentines outfit. Namely, which stockings, suspender/garter belt, and underwear I wear with this dress.

Your stocking choices are…

black seamed FF stockings  – these are the ones that show the least stocking top with the dress, but have the added value of the seam running all the way up my long legs, unobstructed by hemlines!

Black fishnet stockings – with the aid of a suspender/garter belt, these stockings show a little more stocking top than the seams.

Black fishnet hold-ups – there’s quite a bit of stocking top, and even a hint of thigh visible even when just standing in these ones.

Red fishnet hold-ups – as above, but red instead of black!

Your suspender/garter belt choices are between a black 6 strap belt, or a red 6 strap belt.

Your underwear choices are just between the colours red and black, but either one will be a sexy, possibly lacy, thong underwear.

We’ve chosen 10 combination options for you to vote on, obviously we could have made it 100, but we had to draw a line in the sand somewhere and limit the choice to a reasonable number.

Votes can be cast up to 3pm UK time (GMT) on Saturday 14th February. And you can vote more than once if you wish, or if you can’t quite decide between two or three options! lol

Cast your vote here… http://blogslut.bravehost.com/blogpoll.html

And if you want to make any comments or elaborate on your vote, or whatever the case may be, then e-mail me on blogslut13@yahoo.co.uk, or click on this link and fill in my e-mail form… http://blogslut.bravehost.com/emailme.html

I’d love to get at least 50-100 people to vote, so please help me reach my goals and targets!! And I’ll use the response to gage whether to do more polls on various things in the future.

Until next time…

Blogslut xx

Hi everybody,

This is my first blog of 2009, and it’s a very boring one I’m afraid, as I’m just here to tell you about some changes and improvements for my blog that I have put in place and will continue to put in place over the next month or so.

Both J and myself have set a target upon me for 2009 to improve my blog, with the main focuses being on:-

1)       Improving traffic to the blog, and more importantly, improving immediate traffic to the blog. So basically getting more people to read it within the first few weeks of it being posted.

2)       Improving feedback from the blog, as this has been a bit sparse for the most part this past year.

3)       And finally, improving blog interactivity, which goes hand in hand with point 2 to some degree.

It’s been a bit more complicated than I initially hoped, as I had a series of plans to counter these issues, but due to html embedding issues on my blog-sites, I’ve had to create a mini web-site of my own purely to host these new features at. This isn’t an additional blog-site, my blog won’t be posted here, it is just supporting my current blog-sites, but I have put in a decent “About Me” section, and I may include an FAQ section, and other things may pop up here in the future just to help you get to know me better and feel a bit more involved. The site can be viewed here:-

http://blogslut.bravehost.com/

So just to cover what I am doing for the above points:-

Point 1 – Improving Blog Traffic

I have set up a mailing list that everybody is welcome to join, and every time I post a blog, I will send an e-mail out via this mailing list to say that I’ve posted a new blog. This way, you’ll know straight away as I presume you check your e-mails more often than you check my blog-sites! Then you can come along and check out my latest blog straight away. This avoids you logging on every few days just to see if I’ve posted, when I haven’t, or you not logging on for a month and then to come back to find 5 new blogs you have to catch up on. Hopefully it’s just a fairly simple thing that will just improve it for all of you regular readers out there. So join my mailing list by clicking on this link and typing in your e-mail address:-

http://blogslut.bravehost.com/blog.html

Point 2 – Improving feedback

I understand that a lot of people don’t want to leave feedback for everybody to see on the blog, and also that it’s a bit of a pain to note down my e-mail address, then log into your e-mail in order to send me a private e-mail. So one thing I’m trying to do here is put an “e-mail form” on my blog, so you can just type your message and send it directly and privately to my e-mail address in a much simpler manner. I’m having trouble getting the html code to work to actually embed this form into my blog-sites, so I’m just going to have to put a link at the bottom of each blog I post that links you to my mini-site, and you can just read my blog, click on the link to my mini-site, type your message, and we’re away. I hope this will make it easier for you to contact me for whatever reason, as I love to hear your thoughts and comments, and I also love just generally chatting to like-minded people. To see this form and to e-mail me this way, go to this link:-

http://blogslut.bravehost.com/emailme.html

Point 3 – Improving interactivity

This one is a bit of a work in progress, but I’m working on numerous things for this. One click polls is one thing I’m doing (or planning on doing), simple poll questions to get quick opinion from a larger number of people without any effort whatsoever. This might be just to gage opinion on how good a certain blog topic is, whether you want to see more of something in particular, and it may even evolve into you helping me select an outfit or help setting me a fun task. I’m not sure how this one is going to pan out yet, but it offers some good fun opportunities. There isn’t one posted as I type this, but when a poll is up and running, it will be posted here:-

http://blogslut.bravehost.com/blogpoll.html

There will be other things happening for the interactivity issue as well, maybe a guestbook on my mini-site, or a message board where readers can exchange thoughts, opinions and questions with other readers as well as myself. We’ll see where these thoughts lead, and just see what you want to see, as I do this all for you after all!

That’s about it for this blog, going forwards the aim is for me to blog 2-3 times every month, and I do have a few blog topic ideas in my head that I’ll be working on for the next few weeks, so stay tuned, and sign up to my mailing list so you can be the first to read them!!

All necessary links to polls, e-mail forms or whatever else will be posted as and when required in future blogs, so there’s no need to remember them all now!! And hopefully these few improvments will be a positive benefit to the people that matter - YOU!

Take care everybody, and I hope your 2009 has started off good for you all!

Til next time, lot’s of love and sluttiness,

Your faithful interactive blog servant, Blogslut xx (lol)

With it being Christmas time, the past few weeks have been Christmas Party season! Well more just the past week for me, as I had two parties in three days.

Last Wednesday it was time for me to play arm candy at J’s work party. J’s work “do” is usually a fairly formal affair – black tie and evening gown type of thing – due to the type of company he works for, and due to the fact that it’s one of the few times of the year that everybody gets together in one place as very few of them are office based, and most are usually “out and about”.

We had a good time though, especially as it’s always a lot of fun for me to try and find the perfect blend of classiness and slutiness. Both J and myself like trying to find that blend for me, as it’s important that I show J in a positive light at business functions and don’t do anything to show him up. But it’s also important for our relationship that even while maintaining that classy front, I keep my slutty edge. J relishes in the knowledge that as many men are looking at me as possible, and the dirtier their thoughts about me the better! I wore the traditional “little black dress” for J’s work party, good cleavage on show, very short and tight, with black seamed stockings and ultimate high heels of course, what else is there for the classy yet slutty look?! And I felt a lot of wanting looks coming my way as I chatted away to everybody in my unsubtle way of subtly flirting, whilst doing my best to give everybody a better view of my legs or boobs! All whilst smiling my oblivious smile and pretending I wasn’t doing a thing!

I know, I’m an attention seeking hussy, but what are you gonna do!!?? lol

My Christmas Party two days later on the Friday was a completely different affair altogether though. The employees at my work are more diverse, and we don’t require any classiness – a proper party bunch are we!!!

Unfortunately for various reasons, J couldn’t attend my work party, which was probably best anyway as very few partners ended up attending so he may have been a little left out.

And let me tell you, I’m not sure I’ve ever gotten as drunk as I got on Friday, or if I have, it’s been a few years anyway. I remember some of my antics clearly, I only vaguely recall some of my other behaviour, and the rest, well the rest I don’t remember at all!!

One of the things I don’t remember at all but I was told I did, was that I apparently told one of the guys I work with (well he works in a different department but is in the same general office as me), all about a dirty dream I had about them the week before. I don’t know exactly what I said, but I did have that dream and if I went in to any kind of detail about what happened in that dream, then it would have been VERY embarrassing for both of us! Not to mention he is very much the shy and quiet type!

Things I have a very blurred memory of is the over the top (and probably very inappropriate) flirting I did with everybody. I had a very sexy little red dress on and I started the night horny and playful, and every drink I had just seemed to double that feeling for me, so I spent most of the night all over everybody, hugging them, sitting on their laps, dancing very provocatively with them and/or around them, rubbing myself up against their crotches in a very sexual way when dancing, pushing my boobs or ass at them, and I remember kissing two of them, and I’m pretty sure I had a very raunchy dance and kiss with a guy who didn’t work with us, as it was one of those parties where you book a few tables at a multi-company Christmas Party.

And I haven’t even got to the best and/or worst part yet!!

Toward the end of the night I ended up in a toilet stall in the gents bathroom with a guy I work pretty closely with. We’ve always got along great, had a flirty friendship, with pretty good sexual chemistry, but now with us both in a complete drunken state, and me in my “playful” mood, a kiss and a grope on the dancefloor somehow ended up going a little further. After we giggled and kissed our way into the gents, walking right past at least three guys in the bathroom without seeming to care, we locked the stall door, we carried on kissing and our clothes got a little dishevelled. We didn’t go all the way, after about a minute of “mutual masturbation” of his hand being inside my panties, and my hand reciprocating with his cock, he was ready to cum, and in a split second decision, I thought “shit, I don’t want him to cum all over my dress”, dropped to my knees and got there just in time to get his cock in my mouth as he came. I sucked and swallowed and it was just then that I realised what I’d done – that I’d just cheated on J! I said something along the lines of “oh my God, we shouldn’t have done this!” before getting out of there.

I left the party soon after, got home, J was home by this point as he’d been travelling home from his business trip that evening, and I just broke down and cried and told him all about what had happened. He just held me and told me it was okay and that he wasn’t mad about what happened, and that he loved me. It was important to me to hear those words from him.

We spoke more detailed about it on Saturday, and he was very clear that the only punishable offence was that I didn’t ask his permission first, which we have begun the punishment for. But our lengthy talk was more about our wonderings around “involving others” in our sexual relationship, which has been a longstanding conversation topic, as mentioned in previous blogs. We spoke about why I did what I did and how the topic of sex with others and “opening” our relationship had been playing on my mind. We spoke about how it made me feel, which initially was very exciting and thrilling before the overwhelming guilt kicked in. And we spoke about the guy involved, and what I felt about him, and how we were going to deal with the awkwardness of that side of things. There’s lots of questions there really – how is what happened going to affect our working relationship and friendship? How do we approach each other to discuss what happened, or do we just ignore it? Can he and I forget it ever happened and move on? And a question J posed to me – is he someone I may want to see again more openly if we could arrange it? Luckily I haven’t seen him since, as he’s on holiday until next week, so I won’t see him until work on Tuesday, giving me more time to think about everything.

It’s all very confusing to be honest and I’m going to need to think about it long and hard. The last question intrigues me a lot, but could I confess to him all about how my relationship with J works? Would he be interested? Would he be freaked out? Do I even have the balls to broach the subject with him? Do I even have the balls to face him next Tuesday? I don’t know! I really don’t know!

The only thing I do know is that I am so grateful that nobody else at work has any idea about the incident in the gents that night and that it is a secret between me and the guy involved, and nobody else at work. It’s been an embarrassing enough few days at work this week already with everybody’s Christmas Party antics. Luckily I wasn’t the only one who got drunk and acted like an idiot / drunken hussy. Well maybe it was mainly me on the drunken hussy part!! Lol. After about a dozen or so quiet apologies for my behaviour to everybody this week, I think it’s all water under the bridge now.

I’d love to hear anybody’s views, thoughts, or perspective on this blog and the situations I have found myself in. I always appreciate the feedback and comments you guys send to me, and it inspires me to keep posting, so please keep them coming in, and if you’re a long term reader but have never commented or e-mailed me before, then please feel free to do so, even just to say hi – you know it’s only polite!!! Lol My e-mail address as always is blogslut13@yahoo.co.uk

I’m also interested in hearing your views and opinions on what you want me to write about in this blog – what have been your favourite blogs? What do you want me to expand upon? Is there a blog you want to read a sequel/update to? Are there any questions you want to ask me (to be answered privately or in a future blog)? Tell me your views as I want to make this your blog as well as mine!! :-)

This is probably my last blog of 2008, so I just want to say Merry Christmas everybody, and I wish you all every happiness for the New Year.

Lots of Love

Blogslut xx